Where I am at

It's official... My marriage is done and I am happier than I have been in along!!! time... I feel bad because its apparent that there is no salvaging the friendship that used to exist. Truthfully it's better that way. Still I am not so upset that I am hiding in a corner crying and shit, this is a cross road for me and there have been some moments of ups and downs but when it comes down to it, I am better off.

There comes a time in everyone's life where they have to make a choice that they may not want to make. A choice that will forever change their views opinions and outlook...

Me I have taken a long ago needed step, done something I should have done years ago. Do I miss him? Truthfully no I dont, because the man I grew up with, fell in love with and knew disappeared a long time ago.

I listen to all types of music, and I heard this one on Pandora the other day and the words just fit 100% This Girl is Long Gone!

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News and a bit of the blahs

After three pain in the a double scribble re-installs of the sims 2. One in part because Geek squad didnt do the OS install properly so when I got my beloved DT back from the doctor everything went bonkers. :) I have completed it once more, I am crossing my fingers that just as with my job the Third times the charm :)

So as you can see I am working on an update for DE Jay's gotten a slight makeover and so has Manny! I dont know if I like this hair on him though XP oh well I have half the screens written.

Issue is though, the entire chapter is gone all my work has randomly disappeared from my external hard drive and from my computer well probably because I just got it back about two weeks ago. :) I have even checked my email backups and it isnt there, that or I am not finding it so I will continue to search and if worse comes to worse I will re-write it. :(

So that in conjunction with the heat lately and everything else, I am suffering a major case of the blahs... Blah to writing, blah to playing... Probably attributed to the fact I just had to re-install again for the third time and lost half of everything. Including Carters house and a couple of special lots I did for people :) and a big blah today, I MUST CLEAN MY HOUSE and I dont want to, I just want to crawl under the covers and fall asleep without dreaming of Federal Directives!

Nothing like a Department of Labor Directive to give you the blahs LOL! although I cant complain to much I love my job but SHEESH! 17 pages of triple columned size 7 font would turn anyone into a blah addict.

Anyhow enough rambling here, I just want to let you all know that I will have an update hopefully within this month and if things continue to go well for me perhaps even get back into a more timely set of udpates :)

Have a great weekend and to the United States a big hearty YOU GO! in memory of all those we lost on 9-11 and to all our military members who so faithfully serve our country and those who gave their lives to continue to protect us.

Hugs and Cheers!

Cherie

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HOORAY!!!

I'M OFFICIAL!!!

I just got the best news today! I finally got my six month review, a month and three days late LOL! but I have successfully passed my probation! I am official to my position although I could suffer consequence if I mess up to badly!!!

YAY! I can finally take a day or two off without repercussion! and I can finally use VACATION TIME! seeing as how I have 110 hours saved up, from all this because I cant use while on probation and I earn five hours per paycheck EXCITEMENT!

Not to mention the nice raise too! 80)

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ISSUES

Ok so I have installed all my damned games on my laptop but my sims arent showing up, etc and neither is my CC so I must re-download all of it, which is to be expected no matter how many back ups of my Downloads folders I may there is always files that dont come through.

If I cannot get lydie's sim pack to work I will have to re-create her, several characters in fact will have to be re-created so they may very well look different. 80(

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Seriously!

LOL! I SWEAR!!! I am going to get caught up this weekend, I got my laptop so Hubby is on the dt so I should be able to at least make a dent. 80) although I am having fun playing with my new toy, despite hubby thinking it is his. 80)

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I'm Trying...

This is about how I feel right now, LOL! my mimi maow I woke her up to take this shot, LOL! I think I deserve that right when she wakes me up at any time she feels like it just to purr...

Any how nuff said there, I am trying to get caught up on everyones!!! updates, unfortunately life has decided that I must be Florance Freud on top of everything else, and I am on my last week of PROBATION! Crossing my fingers, I think I have it but you never know... I will take it as a good sign that my supervisor ordered my business cards, being I cant until after probation and they hand chose me for a High Priority project. After the last one I didnt bother volunteering then again they didnt bother to ask. I got an email around christmas saying Your it, focus on this and that was that. LOL!

I do love my job and as this final week is starting to kick off I am increasingly nervous, until HR comes to me and says that's it your official I am going to be chewing my fingers to the bones, LOL!

So I probably will be on even less this week but swear I will try and get caught up on everything soon! Perhaps Flo Freud can have a much needed breather today??? probably too much to ask in my household but a woman can hope right? LOL!

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Announcement

Ok so I am working on a DE update... I will have it out this week no matter what, just have to get all the screens finished. (Yeah yeah I know yeah right, right?) LOL!

I am truly working on an update and will have it out by this weekend. One more read through/edit on the writing then I need to make sure that all the pictures match up probably need to take a few more. Which brings me to this...

The doctors finally decided that surgery was the best option for my husband. He went through it on Monday and provided his body responds the way they want... I am hoping he will be home tomorrow or friday. Which means I am going to be offline for about 6 to 8 weeks. He cant do any stretching, lifting or straining for at least six weeks, which means I am going to get stuck pretending that I am some sort of Florence Nightingale. Me who gags when a cat hacks up a hairball... LOL! But I want to be there for him and it's why I am doing it. 80)

SO this will be my only update for at least another month to month and a half when I get it finished. I will still be reading, and hopefully commenting as I should... If not I really am reading just dont have the brain power/function to comment... So please dont take offense. 80)

My life is a crazy 5150 Government Cheese experiment right now LOL! JK! I am handling it, just have alot to look at, accept and swallow. 80) teaches me to overload my plate. 80)

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I need a word

Hello everyone,

I am on the hunt it is frivolous in reality but my manager has given me a challenge to find a word for Gloomy/Oppressive with news in the definition. LOL! I have been looking on line, on websters used the thesaurus etc and now I am asking you 80) if anyone knows of one or a good place to go and look for this it would be greatly appreciated!

Cheers!

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Happy Veterans Day

Thank you to all the men and women who have served and are currently serving to protect our great Land. Without you we would not have the choices we do today! God Bless you all!

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Half month of Hell Day 13

Ok So I am still buried under files, working like a mad rabid chicken to get through all of this, with the ever looming deadline approaching. I have had to break down and plead with co-workers to help me. 80) with some of the easier things...

Okey Dokey, pressures on!!!

I have read everyone's update but I am still out of it, so exhausted by the time I get home and the carrier monkey from outbreak, as I have decided my little bro is, has managed to get me sick in the process... So yeah not fun at all when I have to explain programs etc to crowds of 30. 80) But I am doing it and I am making it...

Just a random update while I break away from Manilla folder cuts, staple munchers and massive amounts of paperwork. LOL!

One more session today, then one more on THURSDAY!!!! I can hardly wait! But then comes the joy of catch up! with all the files that dont pertain to this particular program... Geesh! that will take me a week!

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Two Weeks of Hell Day Two!

LOL! Ok so I opened my big fat mouth and VOLUNTEERED to take on a specific set of sessions for a program we have. Little did I know that it would entail two sessions per fortunately one was cancelled today. 80) I can breath again, and I have a deadline of 10-18 to get 200 participants in to my supervisor, not to mention the current tower of 48 files that I have to make calls and send letters on. LOL!

I love my job, I love my job... *Yeah keep telling myself that* LOL! just kidding, well at least I am handling it, but I am not going to around much during probably the next two weeks. Actually longer my computer is going to the doctor this weekend... And I am a bit afraid to touch my brothers, he has a cold and I really dont want one! 80) then again I have plenty of lysol...

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Some New Characters and some Creature Explanations

I have posted a few new ones over at the Creatura blog for Dark eyes, there is a description of the Nightwalkers, Daywalkers, Lupusnoxs male and Females along with a photo shoot of some new and upcoming characters. Actually Zyon, Yone and Ziyone... But also is an unknown character, Alaine... LOL! my lips are sealed!

Oh Yes there is a challenge here, can anyone recognize the sim I have used for Yone, LOL!

As well a few spoiler pics of the upcoming chapter of Jay! LOL! but no spoiler on words.... Sorry... 80)

If your interested it can be found here!

New Characters & Spoiler Too

Enjoy!!!

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Dark Eyes Info

Hello All!

If you happen to be a reader of Dark Eyes the old blog is going to be invite only. So if anyone is interested in still reading or needs to catch up, send me an email.

butterfliangelwing@gmail.com and I will gladly send you a link.

Being the story line has changed... *wrings hands* Still it should be easy enough to follow and the conversion shouldnt be too difficult to understand at least I hope not.

It is what I have been up to these last weeks, 80) working out all the fine details etc... Setting it up and writing in the new characters. Writing out the old that I no longer wish to deal with at this time and boy oh boy is Formerly Chapter 13 now Book two Chapter 1 going to shock! well maybe not so much, LOL! but there is alot thats a changin 80).

I will be setting up an alternate blog, well actually blogs... That will host the new story line, complete with character interviews/bio's... Damned Jay really lit into me on that one, LOL! Descriptions of my new "mythological" characters... That I am sure no one has ever heard of... Well simple enough terminology so many may have since they are actual words just with my own nutty twist 80).

Thanks Drew for Lupusnox
And
Thanks Lachesis for Cimmerian

Thank you all for your continued support and reading!

Hugs

PS if anyone has any suggestions as to how to add the read more option, I have tried following the danged tutorial and it never NEVER works! along with a good layout complete with links that will allow me to do small photos that open up when you click on them so you can read? I would love it!!!

PSS my POS computer, Poor Baby! well it is really acting badly now so I am going to have to take it in to the doctor soon. Which means I will be offline for a good 3-6 weeks while it is being repaired. My only access to internet will be from work, but then I cant read any of the stories with warnings up... They block that sort of thing. 80) so I will fall even further behind in my reading than I already have. Hmmm perhaps I will steal the little bro's. LOL! it would serve him right after what he did to my baby...

Then after that comes the whole re-install, finding any CC that I had being my computer refuses to write to a CD and the External HD is a bit more expensive than I can afford right now. Housing is due this check, and I am worried that the next check may be to late...

I will try and get the new blog and the first chapter up this weekend, no promises though... 80)

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Announcement!

Just a couple miscellaneous announcements,

One meet a new character to Dark Eyes, I am not giving much away on him other than the fact he is fallen... Not by choice and has a major role in a certain characters life. LOL! 80) Meet Xavier, yeah yeah I am so un-original when it comes to names, LOL!

And I realized just now I havent posted here yet,

I am taking until most likely the end of October to re-center myself in regards to writing, but more importantly in regards to my recent promotion. Although I am picking everything up with ease and am way ahead of the game there is so much to be done... I am up at 5:30 every morning and in bed by OMG!!! 9 in the evening, I havent been to sleep that early since I was in kindergarten! LOL!

Still it is well worth it, I have an issue dealing with heavy freeway traffic, dont know why but I cant stand it, so it is worth it... Plus I am learning all kinds of new stuff so my brain is full of different policies, procedures and grants... literally no room for my story writing... I am still reading everyone's updates just not quite commenting yet, basically too tired to come up with something that sounds remotely understandable, LOL! and with my nose stuck in various web pages and grant books etc... Well I can hardly understand my own thoughts, LOL! Gotta love a new job!

Now it could be less time than October, but I am thinking I may very well take it just because and for all I know I might extend it just a bit once everything is finally settled. If that is the case then I will step down if others of the SWA wish it, but I really dont want to lose being a member of this group. 80) Besides RL always come first. 80)

Thank you all for your well wishes and support this last year! and thanks for the continuation of support!

Hugs to all!!!

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Random Balderdash and what I am doing...

Just some random mutterings of an overly burnt out brain, lol! But hey my INTERVIEW went GREAATTT!!!

For those of you who read Butterfly (BAtT) you know from my last post that I am for lack of a better way to put it BORED and downright STUCK on where to go next. So in an attempt to renew my enthusiasm for the story I started reading through the original work...

Well I will say this, I have decided to start editing it, as I feel the desire of course. But I have gone a completely different direction with the blog version than what I initially wrote. Hooray... As well I am at over 62,000 words and have 117 pages, YIPEE... NOT!!! So I think I am going to actually try and get it published... Especially since it is so different from the original, that is if I can find an agency willing to take it. DEFINATELY romance... and not like what I have been publishing. I am estimating once I finish converting it from first person *shudder* that's all characters! to third person and I add in details etc it will be well over 100,000 words...

And for the Dark Eyes fans, a pic of what is too come... Where is Lydie, LOL!
I have three chapters written just procrastinating on the screens, SORRY! 80)

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SQUEEAAAAAAAALLLLLLL!!!!

Ok I am literally about to BURST!!! this week just keeps getting better and BETTER!!!

Yesterday I found out on of my clients who I assisted with her resume got a JOB!

And today I got called for an interview for a position I had applied for within my agency, A promotion if I do well on the interview and am considered!!!

I am so excited and I just cant hide it LOL!!!!

Ok enough of this now!! !

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New Story Idea

Ok so I can hardly keep up with the two I have going now... But I have this story idea that is just driving me mad... So I think I am going to start working on it... Will take a couple of weeks, and it is certainly more in my genre...

Victorian Era~ Romance... I am going to allow my uh... romantic explanations a bit more freedom this time. Although I still dont feel comfortable taking the screens of those bits. 80)

Read on for a short preview...


The train whistle blew long and loud as it pulled away from the station, causing her to jump. Vivienne could hardly believe that she had done it, yet her heart still worried. What if her parents found her, forced her to return? surely she missed her home, her priviledged comforts. Still not enough to ever go back, which is why she had scrimped and saved, stolen the fine silver to fund this little venture and taken the job as the governess to the wealthy farmers children.

Jonah and Meredith raced down the dirt street, a cloud of dust billowing behind them as they hurried towards the station. Father would certainly be displeased that they were late to collect the governess. "Come on Merri, hurry up for I dont desire a whoopin tonight," Jonah called over his shoulder. Using the last of his energy to sprint forward.

"I'm hurrying, I really am!" Meredith breathlessly hollored back, her lungs burning from the exertion. "I just hope she isnt as mean as old lady Beck," she muttured under her breath, silently praying their new governess would allow them this one fault....


Ok so what do you all think??? should I continue with it, should I take on yet third story? LOL!

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SCREAM!!!!

Ok so I am venting I went into the game to try and work on a possible update, but NO!!!! its not having any of it!!! all my sims look like monkeys, and I even re-loaded the sims packs... and all my CC is f-d off!!! even though it is all in the damned download folder.... So it must be something I just added, recently, Thank you B for giving me the idea to start naming my folders with the date of download!

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Update Delayed and a small preview...

Thanks to my B-Day my husband and I are having a few friends over tomorrow for our first BBQ, something we do every year, weather permitting, So I really should have thought of it.... I feel like I have been in the kitchen since I got home 5 Hours ago, LOL! I am making my Homemade Fajita's, so had to make the marinade then had to make the GasPatcho??? I am sure I spelled that wrong.... Not to mention salsa(Perhaps I should say Pico de Gallo, lol) and Guacamole, LOL! So my BAtT update will not be at least for a couple more days... So I leave you with the new banner ( I do not care for it much, but it's better than the last) Working on a couple more now...
and a couple previews too. LOL!

Update should be in a couple of days and I swear, I have read everyone's updates just need to sit down and RE COMMENT!!! I swear Bloggergeist hates me... Everytime I leave something it erases.... *Grumble Growl* That or gives me an error... I am starting to think my computer is having a fit too.... LOL!

Wherever could Marianne be???? One of my newest houses... Only took me 3 weeks at about 2 hours a week. LOL!

Obviously it doesnt make her happy, LOL! But Hey at least she has Mister Handsome Townie to watch over her while she sleeps. Or is it possible he found a way to put her to rest, LOL! Actually the whole next chapter is about Mari I think to make things easier and get back into posting I will focus on one character or situation at a time. Especially being I want to wrap this Story up soon... (Within the next year soon) LOL! although BAtT Doesnt end with Ava... Already begun Drafting the next Installment... 80) Still I have to say Part 2 is certainly more detailed.... (At least so far) then again I am known for changing everything up at last minute... LOL!

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Offer and some news

As several of you know I am more than willing to share any of my custom sims with you. Just let me know if you want any one of them and I will gladly send them to you. 80) and I mean any of them. Heaven knows they arent being played with as much as they should, LOL!

As well just wanted to let you know I have chapter 22 & 23 complete and am half way through 24 of Butterfly. Just need to edit them and take the shots... Will try and get an update this weekend. I really found I missed this story line. 80) although I am considering tying it up here soon. If I can... So many loose ends I need to tie up first. and there is a possible Dark eyes update as well I have an idea... LOL!

As well my house blog is coming along slowly but surely, I will most likely make it public this weekend. 80)

Thank you all for being such a supportive and friendly group, it is a pleasure to be a part of all of this. Especially during my difficult last few months!

Special thanks to Gayl, Beth, Karen, Sandy, Emily and Cheryl! 80)

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